Back in March I quit smoking. I am not going to sit here and wax poetically on how evil cigarettes are or how difficult it was to quit. You have heard it all before. What I do want to cover is an experience that I am not entirely sure is connected to smoking, however it would explain a lot on why it is so difficult.
After about three months of being smoke free I began to feel like I could not concentrate like I used to. I felt that before I quit smoking I had more energy, could think better, had more optimism, could work harder, concentrate harder, and in every way be a superior person.
The most difficult thing for me was to not go back to smoking as a way of improving myself. Now how’s that for a twisted kind of logic. I don’t know if cigarettes affected my brain or what the psychological process was. All of the other propaganda that the no-smoking Nazis and health nuts advertise is true to a large extent.
I don’t advocate other people to stop smoking. I wish our government would leave smokers alone. Some day when I am old and frail I will probably take up smoking again, but it will probably be marijuana not tobacco. I wonder if we find a cure for cancer whether or not smoking would make a big comeback. Now that would be an interesting thing to see.
Anyway not I am fairly certian that I will not backslide and start smoking again. Everyday I think about it and everyday I make a consience decision not to smoke today.
I also find that I have more money in my pocket since I quit.